her feelings she hides.
her dreams she can`t find.
she`s losing her mind.
she`s fallen behind.
she can`t find her place.
she`s losing her faith.
she`s fallen from grace.
she`s all over the place.
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i wish for you on a fallin` star, wonderin` where you are, do i ever cross your mind..
purely bored right now. not being paranoid here but i seriously think i`m going to die soon. really. just somehow. definitely not by suiciding. there`s just something wrong la but i don`t exactly know what.
dammnnn i think im confused. friends. what are they. you. who the hell tood are you. me? why on earth am i here. when sooner or later everyone just disappears. i don`t understand.
i wonder where i`ll be when im gone. prolly on my way to find my grandma`s big house.. =x this is weird but i suddenly thought about her. we don`t even talk more than 3 sentences each day. we don`t understand each other. we can`t even communicate la okay. i don`t even know her name. that`s the worse part. there`s just something. something i`ve yet to figure it out. =x
graaaaah. shuckks. okay i think people think too much. so just stop thinking dammit! i had a dream 2 days ago. hardly have any cos i don`t sleep well? yehh and i wished it was only but true.
whatever la okay i just want to spend my time well. go sentosa. go to the places i want. go swimming. do the things i want. i thinkkk i don`t understand myself. okay nevermind im thinking again. still rmb the happy fish. arha! something like. take some time to think. concentrate and think then tada u see the light. i think it`s quite cool. and quite true also.
i`m just afraid to think too much. i think i need a psychiatrist.
nowadays kids are already like an adult. as in kids in kindergarten or primary schools la. what`s the world coming to. if only we live a reversed life =x at least u die without pain. sayonaraaa.
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ziak. time flieees. it`s been a week already and i felt i`ve done nothing really great. swim swim swim. swimming all the way i guess. lol. so today was the 2nd lesson le. nic and cin cldn`t make it. lol. anyhow eunice`s back from shaaanghaaai and we can go sentosa alr. np de went ubin camp. i think it`s quite cool.
after swimming today went to eat tang yuan. (ie. soup balls?) whatever u call that in english la. its in peanut soup and i think it taste good. -laughs- and then at night was darn cool man. went fullerton hotel with my parents. lol supposed to be the wedding anniversary or smth but they ask me go also -.-" haha. damnn the food there quite normal just that the way they display it looks really nice and high-class all that. and it was like quite little. lol. and when the bill came it was like. two hundered over. ARGHS i could have bought at least a mp3 player or nike dunk or a good bike and whatever shite there was la. yehh my dad had some voucher again. but my dad still had to pay a lot thou. the place was veh grand. i like it. (: who won`t man. if only i got chance to stay at the hotel rooms. hhahahar =x okae.
then wenta walk around. very cool lo. singapore river look really nice at night. quite romantic i must say. arghhhs! lol nevermind bout all dat. it`s back to reaal lifeee.
tmr still gotta go to some weird sch. davai or is it damai sec sch. whatever laa it`s at bedok. im lazzzzzy.. but ahh well. better than staying at home haha.
swimming roccccckkkkkkkks.
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been swimming and swimming. i guess it just rocks. anyway ytd was swimming lessons. me liying cindy munting and nicholas. yesss. lol. kinda farny laa. lol. it`s life saving btw. kewl.. then also got the rest go there swim for fun narr. haha it rainedd. but still was fun thou no sun.
okay so today's saturday. went for some buffet thing with my parents. got voucher ma. anyway the place quite lousy la. panpacific or smth. then told them i want a swim wear. HAHA! then went marina square see see don have so walked to suntec. then got this shop selling all swim wear de ma. then went in and the price was like. $180 over. lol! then told them i`ld rather buy nike. and they did. the one with mmiv. haha! yehh so. (: haha thanks man. lol~ anyway got 1o% discount so was alright laa. quite cheap for nike. got one also quite nice derr. same cutting like the one i bought. but it was dark blue and the strap was red. quite nice la. then my mom say buy lighter colour betta in case got whad emergency easier to spot -.-!! omagawd. they rockk. hahah!!! (: let`s go swimmming!!
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six F 2oo1. (: yehh today was a greeaaat day. met chermaine, janice, ngaiying and peiwen at clem. then met the rest at orchard. comprising of ying xu, jie lin, nicholas ng, kennth ng, kenneth sin, tan ting wei, zhi quan, eugene soo, lim dexian, nigel kong, leon chen, teo shi jie, kangdi, linus, limweiyi, and one extra guy from sixG? he claims to know most of us but most of us haven`t seen him before. hahar! missed all of them. they all look quite the same anyway. lol just that dexian became more quiet -.- then the rest all taller. nicholas more muscular cos he`s in kayak. HAHA! nigel more shuai. leon more iidiotic. lol! ying xu, still same ol` her. the organiser of the whole damn thingg. haha! janice also didn`t change much. shijie chermaine peiwen n ngaiying are in nhss. sooo. can`t really see the change cos i see them almost everyday. wahaha!
right. back to business. walked a distance to cine. bought eighteen tix for `the forgottened`. nic and jielin couldn`t stay cos they got something on? haha! busy people.. wenta eat BK. talked a whole lot. and ate a hell lot too. -.-" couldnt finish so we packed. haha! went arcade. holyshite. was so darn farny mann. LOL!! playyed the hockey thinggy. haha! then me and jl played DDT or issit PPP?! omgg so damn slow i still can miss. damn farny la. i was just stifffff -.-
haha went for the movie. eug was quite farny. he showed the tix to the person like i donno how to say. just veh farny laa. then the person like wither shocked or pissed -.- haha!
the show was quite nice la. janice kept asking whie the person can anyhow fly up to the sky or smth. haha! quite nicee. lol! then when we came out from the theatre kangdi was like "who`s are this" holding the bk bag. cos start of the movie we threw it to the back. lol! DARN FARNY. LOL.
okayyyyy. nexxxt. walked to heeren. took neooooos.. quite dumb lo eighteen people squeezing into a machine. LOL. but veh farnyy narr. then the girls took another. erhmmm.. i was exposed... somehow. lol!!! shant elaborate. =x spent like one hr at neos. then walked to taka. went kinokuniya. then rehm crapped laa. ttw dat rich guy bought some books -.- whatever that is. lol. then cher and pw went off first. the rest wenta eatt and crapped and stuffs
and ohya. sawwwww SAM. HAHAR! okayy -.- yehh then went home lerr. yehh prolly in dec we`ll be having another sixF gathering at sentosa. muahaha! lol. missed those people so much. (: went home bout 7 plus ba. haha today was quite a success i must sayy. all thks to YX. LOL!!! (:
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*POPS* alright swimming simply rockkks! water polo too! LOL!!! sadly, there don`t seem to be any schools with girl`s water polo. yehh and acjc`s dah champ in waterpolo. haha! and sajc the forth. brrr the sudden swimming craze. prolly cos of the show baa. gonna end after five more episodes. so friggin fassssst. lol! haha anyway who wants to go for swimming courses? LOL!!! u get certs then next time can be part time life guard. wahaha! so kewll. lol.
anyway went queensway again. yes. again. lol. arghhs wanta buy loads of starffs. swimminsuit. jersey. shorts. long pants. maybe dat nike sweater? sixty plus dollars. shoeees. for out and for school! maybe a bike. for all these i`ll need quite alot of money ler. haha. plus plus. ice skating movies sentosa swimmin all this tix and entrance fees. lol! -.-" okayyy
shld start on my holiday homework ler. slacked for 2 weeks already. if i continue slacking i`ll slack till next yearr. haha. SWIMMIN ROCKS!
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cool fact! listen. there are only 2 swimming complex with a diving pool. that is. SEA DEEP. where it it most suitable to play waterpolo. and they are toa payoh swimming complex and queenstown swimming complex!!! dead coooool. HAHAR!
today`s sunday. wanted to go swim but didn`t have the time. in the afternoon was sort of a family day ba. lol went mac ritchie reservoirr. haha quite fun la. like go for a trail. then we crossed the whatever new-built bridge. quite cool lo! damnnn i loveeeee nature. =x okay but im not really nature-loving. HAHAH. whatever. lol then quite tiringg. and no sun cos it was all ..... TREES. like duh. lol.
anyway. HI SHIRONG!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! =p
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*LAUGHS* about my hair. okay shan`t elaborate since it`ll grow long. but i don`t wanna let it grow so fast if not will have to cut it again. that will be bad. rainy day. just like yesterday. had a*maths extra lessons. i caught no balls.
sucha sad life ain`t it. sometimes i wonder why some people try so hard. in the end they get nothing but more pain. maybe not now. you try so hard and got so far. but in the end.. it doesn`t even matter. don`t really understand what i`m typing here. just don`t know howta express you see. it`s just too.. indescribable? shuckks. u`ll understand when you understand.
swimming swimming as fast as we can do you think we'll make it. swimming, keep holding my hand so we don't get separated. the swimming version of the running song by no doubt. damn im seriously bored.
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