Saturday, February 27, 2010

I know everything is gonna be okay
just as long as we have each other

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I don't get what is wrong with me.

Why this blueness out of the blue? & why isn't it going away?

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What goes up must come down, and it works the other way too.

AH WELL, one step at a time - one day at a time. Especially when days in school are so hard to get by nowadays - boring lectures, tests and lab reports!

A swim and a talk with a friend always lifts the spirit. Next time when in bad mood, just keep quiet, grit your teeth and persevere, because it'll be gone soon enough. Because if you don't, you'll probably make things worse.

Okay, at least I drafted out my biotech lab report today. I can feel less guilty.

AHHH, TGIF! (:

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I've never felt SO 'urgh' - this feeling which I can't put into words.

Like laupy said, this is the Quarter-life crisis. I don't know what to do any more, really. I don't know what I'm doing right now. Just wasting life away.

And I'm losing focus really fast and it's really bad. I don't usually lose focus like that, tell me what's wrong with me? Like today, I just gave up studying for a test. I just gave up, I just slept my day away. It's probably no big deal, but it scares me a lot because I don't usually do that. And that's just one out of the many incident. I never used to give up so easily. Losing the discipline to do things ): I feel myself going down a slippery hill, gotta stop and find a way to climb back up.

I need a run, I need a swim, I need the Sun, I need to unwind, I need to let go, I need to put everything else that's affecting me aside. I need to look at things in a better light.

I hope I find myself back soon.

Thank you friends for always talking to me and telling me I'm not alone and that we'll all be fine somehow someday. Even if you don't know what's going on in my life, you always try to make me laugh and smile and say it's gonna be okay at the end of the day. Sometimes just pure companionship will do, just laugh and have fun, or just complaining about how tough life is altogether. (: I'm really thankful for that. And so, "you'll all be fine" back to all of you, just hang in there!

Haha,

Funny how I end up sounding so emo all the time. Dislikes.

Okay, I'm gonna try to always put my best foot forward (regardless of whether I like it or not or regardless of how much I complain)

Okay, need sleep for a better tomorrow (:

P.S - sorry for this emo post. Period's fault.

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First day of school was --- dull.

Some overdue photos from Sentosa. Man I miss Sentosa and the awesome sun, rarar! Had a lecture today on Sunburns/tan. It made me kinda paranoid. ): Booohooo, so sad. The sun is my best friend, how can someone make me not like my bff. LOL.

I guess I'm gonna start staying away from strong sun --- because it causes freckles, aging, burns and skincancer. And I felt so cheated when the lecturer said there's no such thing called water resistant sunblock ): BOOHOO.

My laptop is damn laopok. I have problem typing and it's super irritating.

Gonna stop.

Long overdue photos of us and the sun, from Jess :D






I look like crap here plus I got cut off (cos I'm tall). But this is for you Bel! :D


Jesshoho.







Miss ya'll. Please don't get burnt in Kangaroo land hokay (:




never gonna be the same if we ever meet again

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This recess week (including Chinese New Year) was an awesome one (:

So many reunion dinners/lunches, birthday lunches/dinners, so many supper outings, so many late nights and so much laughter :D (Even though there's also quite a few goodbyes, friends going overseas)

Dear Friends, thank you for keeping me sane.

Nao, it's back to school. Dreads! But I believe we can survive this by keeping each other sane. :DD

Peektures soon when people finally upload them hahahaha.

Okay, I'm going to have an early night. G'night ya'll, love you people dip dip!

Hope friends in Aussie land are doing good, see you people soon! :D

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Today's the only day I stayed at home (okay out for awhile only) and ohmygahd, it's a Saturday ): Usually there's shopping with my parents, but not today. Maybe because it's CNY week, my dad decided to cook up some curry chicken for dinner which was quite awesome, and so we all stayed at home.

So fine, finally a day at home when I can mug my ass off. But grah, today was uber unproductive. I had so many things on my mind I just couldn't concentrate. I ended up eating eating and eating. I even watched 'It's complicated' online. SAI lah, so many things to memorise I feel like puking already. Clotrimazole, miconazole, talengectsia (sp?!), Vulvovaginal candidias, minoxidil, ketoconazole, terbinafine, amorolfine. ZOMG, someone kill me or save me?

The stress is slowing creeping in. I know I'll be helluva busy with school work once this week ends. Tests every weeek without fail. ): SIGH. Why like thatz.

I should abstain from the cyber world for real. Shut msn and facebook. Msn makes me emo, should go less.

Okay bye.

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Dear Wxjxjxj Wxjxj Wxjxj, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Your view on yourself:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are intelligent
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Honest
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Sweet
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are friendly to everybody
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't like conflict
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Because you're so cheerful
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Fun people are naturally attracted to you
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Like to talk to you
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You like serious
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Smart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Determined people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't judge a book by its cover
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship
The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So you will find yourself with plenty of dates
Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can
The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You'll be set for life
How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous
What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are concerned about your image
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : The way others see you
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : It's time for you to believe in who you are
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Not what you wear



THIS IS Q TRUE! Okay, I'm really bored. Sigh.

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Totally.

24 hours is too short to do everything you want to do. Even less so for things that you must do - like mugging. ):

& the week is already coming to an end. Why can't we just have fun all the way, I don't mind learning, but must we really memorise? GRAH. Pointless.

NEEED SLEEEP. SLEEP FIRST, THINK LATER.




Why do I still bother?

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I LOVE CNY + RECESS WEEK - MUGGING.

Monday -

Slept at 4 plus the previous night. Too many many late nights, very bad. But it's okay cny's supposed to be unhealthy with all the good food and goodies anyway. Went to watch omni-theatre with my parents. :D It's quite boring ah, but the screen made it naice. So yeah, it's like another annual routine. Ate and then my mom started telling me about all my relatives, blah blah, wha damn political. Went home and did some lo hei-ing #2! :D Parents plus bro plus his gf went to my dad's side to bai nian and I didn't go. I heard it was all good business and my bro and his gf received 10 over angbaos from there, RAR, wasted never go!

Instead, I met up with the usuals and went wm's house for steamboat (#3 Steamboat). Watched Law abiding citizen until 12 midnight. Q naice ah, but abit grotesque. Then somehow we decided to go play LAN! Ohmygahddd, I never knew Left 4 Dead 2 can be so fun and exciting! HAHAHAHA! We should go play more! :D Finally found something to do at night other than chillaxing and clubbings and watching movies. So yeah, cheers to another late night! :D

Tuesday -

Woke up pretty late. Tried to get some monographs into my head but phail. Seriously I don't know how to study for Pharm Prac, it's all about memorising. SIGH. Ate steamboat #4 for dinner HAHA. Then off I went to Preet's house for SC3 class gathering! Awesomeness, it had the highest turnout rate ever! (y) Good job! :D Lo hei #3 for me. Pizzas, and movies, and polar bear. Hahahaha, shouted until I almost lost my voice. Cabbed home, another late night.

Wednesday -

That's today! Gonna eat udders! :D

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Had steamboat on Saturday night. :D :D :D I love steamboat at home! And my dad was quite cute. Cos he's born Tiger and he heard from don't know who he must avoid the tiger year so that he'll have a smooth-sailing year or something like that. So he dressed up in red pyjamas (long sleeve long pants) to sleep. LOLOL! Sho cuteeee right!

Sunday: Whole morning at aunt's place. Yearly routine. The place looks the same every year haha. Her room will be likka garung guni's room, all stacked with books, documents and I dont know what. Really, see already also don't feel like sleeping one, don't know how she sleeps every night haha. Thennn, the food on the table is usually about to expire or has expired or like leftovers from last year. Today she offered us cake that turned mouldy (okay but it's not her fault, she got the cake quite recently on Friday) So yeah, we had steamboat lunch! Second steamboat. And shark's fins! :D

Went home to sleep, drove to the airport to send Beldingdong off to Aussie. It was quite scary. The story went like this:

1) Addie, Mt, teo took Isaac's van to my house

2) I was supposed to wait for my Dad to come home so I can take his car and send all 3 of them to the airport (van cannot park there) but it was too late, we needed a car.

3) So I just asked my Bro to lend me his car (which is btw manual, haven't driven manual car for 1.5 years) and he said okay, zomg

4) Took his car and started the engine - STALLED #1

5) Drove all the way to the airport. Got honked by a stupid car at the back but it was his fault cos he cut 2 lanes at one time!

6) After sending bel off, I let puiyin drive the car

7) So we had four cars in total (ws, kel, ky and my cars)

8) drove to changi Village for supper. Okay, the journey was very exciting because the four cars just kept cuttting each other's lanes and at super high speeds (140km)! Kids please do not try this - highly dangerous!

9) At changi V, realised they have no more nasi lemak so we drove (140km/hr) to ECP macs!

10) Parking at the lot, stall #2. Omg I really suck at parking.

11) Eat eat eat, talk talk talk then drove home with wm!

12) Did some parking practice at my house carpark (luckily no one looking at that hour hhahahaha)

Okay end of the exciting night. Now we are all safe at home! (y) Omg, so exciting to drive.

HAHAHA.


Okay I'mma noob, gotta drive more!

HAPPY CNY PEOPLE! (:

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Back from School + Swimming + Family reunion dinner + Sam's birthday + Supper at Geylang.

Long long long day.

I still haven't found time to go buy my shoes! Grahz!


And hello, I don't blog about any guy hor!

tired, and eye still pain.


Hello CNY.
Please be happy.

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"If you don’t go after what you want, you’ll never have it. If you don’t ask, the answer is always no. If you don’t step forward, you’re always in the same place."

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TIRED.

I went for my first blood donation drive today and it was awesome! :D Feels really good after that, like woah, I've finally donated blood, I'm doing some good deed and collecting good karma. Okay, but the wait was really nerve-wrecking, especially when you have people telling you how big the bloody needle is. GRAH! So yay, I've sort of conquered a little fear. LOL.

Okay, other than that, today's quite a boring day at school. What's new?

BBQ at Tracy's place (at farfarawayland - Serangoon) ZZZ. Now I'm really full (it's 2am already) and my hair is still wet so I can't sleep.

And my eye is still hurting from I-don't-know-what-problem. Grahz.











Okay, more interesting days to come.

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win win win win win win win win win win.

You win.




GRAH, dislikes.

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Some peektures to fill my blog with some life.


My awesome big family!




(hahaha, likka yearly thing to do)

Sentosa with LAUPY and JESSHO!




(one of the nicest jump shots ever!)


Sentosa with LIOW, BEL, JESSHO, PEILIN!







(lubs!)


(another naice jump shot! :D)





Phuay's Birthday at her palace!





(COOL HELMET HUR!)


(another naice jump shot, again)





(at her mini bar, zomg, yes she has a bar at home!)



(nanhua friends plus teacher)


BELDINGDONG'S 21ST!








(my fav photo of the album, TEEHEE! :D)


(chillaxing in the room, not)





Pharm sports carnival!



BHBH5 Chalet with stupid boys



(Can't agree less)



Okay, end of the feast for your eyes.

Went to Chinatown today! Crowded like crasy, yucks. Okay, nothing special, the usual cny goods yadah yadah. Got scammed by a stupid 'magic' trick. Got pushed and stepped on by people. grahz. Yay, it's the weekends! :D Then it's going to be the start of an awesome two weeks ahead, woohoo!

Lovin' it.
(Lazy to elaborate any further)

Hold me steady, we'll never be ready



Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard

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GGFIED. I only realised today that my holiday is going to be really packed if everything is going to go on the way it is.

"

Dear Xiaojie,

The year is now in full motion. In 2010, many would have started the year with the right intentions, diligently setting new years resolutions. However February is here and how are you doing? Often busy schedules can really be tough to manage.

One solution is to get committed. There are many events coming up in the Singapore race calendar, from the Sundown half and full marathon through to the OSIM Triathlon. Taking the first step and participating is the best way to stay focused and keep the training flame burning hot all year!

Happy Training!
The Racers' Toolbox Team

"

Lol! Okay, the first paragraph is really apt. But no, no time for marathons this year ): Maybe Standard Chartered at the end of the year, but we'll see about that. So anyway, let's see, after exams, 3 days holiday overseas, right after that is preceptorship, then most likely to korea for APPS, then when I'm back there's camp. I even wanted to sign myself up for more commitments, oh such great folly. Hur hur, exciting holiday! Can't wait! (Minus the preceptorship part)

Anw, for now it's quite chillax, no other commitments other than schoolwork and abit of windsurfing stuffs. School is quite crasy, crasily boring and draining. ZZZ.

Tiredddddddddddddd, shall sleep. Online-abstinence is good! (It's not being anti-social, you know I'd rather talk to you in person than just looking at the screen, right?)


Need. Precious. Sleep.

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Birthday-ful week, and I had lots of fun catching up, cam-whoring and touring around an awesome house hahahah. It's pretty tiresome, too many late nights!


Okay, need to squeeze out some time to do some serious work! I gotta write my personal statement grahz! Dislike doing stuffs like that, stuffs that requires me to think about what I want to do with my life. & I gotta start catching up with my school work. Likka pile of lecture notes sitting there waiting for me to flip through and read them!


Hi there to a whole new week, again.

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