Saturday, March 31, 2007

And when you take, you take the very best of me

I've been rather lazy to update, or more like being depressed actually. There's such a fine line between being happy and being sad. If life was a graph, it would be fluctuating, at least for mine. I think I'm suffering from "emotional instability" as quoted from tingting. And this phrase has a very literal meaning. Fluctuating emotions but not siao okay.

Well anyway, I had a greeaaaaaaaaaat and loooong 18th Birthday! (: 4 birthday cakes, 18x4-1 candles, gifts and such, many hugs and much love. :D Thanks people, I really appreciate it (:







Just some photos, more coming up soon (when I'm not that lazy)

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY EUNICELAISHIYUN! I was the first to wish you :D
And happy birthday to all march babies and april babies in advanced too!

Friday was sad in school, interesting at the zoo, fun at kidzread and dinner too.
Tell me what to feel please. My results really sucksxz big time this time round, it's super disappointing. Expected much more, but I really don't know what happened, ZZZXXS! I hope it's just a one-off event. Roars, is being 18 really mean being old? I feel everything is going down slope. And everything is everything, you get what I mean.

On a lighter note, zoo was cool. Crowd-less. Some renovations here and there, I think our zoo has really sad animals, just like me, all emo-ing. I almost died walking in Cherie's blister causing shoes.

Kidzread after that! SUPER FUN! It's like when you're in a crowd of cute and some hyperactive kids you'll just start laughing at their silliness and cuteness. Haven't recalled my childhood and haven't been to clementi children's library for the longest time ever, sure was duper fun! I think I'm pedophile :x but they are really really really cute. (especially this boy called frayson!) Okay, dinner after that.

Saturday, CIP at bradell with the class, there was another kid called isaac i think, super cute but violent and camera-shy. Lunched at junction 8 swensens, walked and went home.


WEEE, we.


I took this photo and I think it's nice! (:


ISAAC, the one who kicked and scratched me but still cute anyway.


EMO KIDSXZSZX

ROARS, I don't know what to feel. Life is so confusing. But one thing I do know is that being happy is good and being sad sucks. So I'm going to be happy no matter how confusing it's going t be.

I'm every cliche, but I simply do it best (at least I'll try).

; TEN FEET UNDER

When the routine bites hard
and ambitions are low
And the resentment rides high
but emotions won't grow
And we're changing our ways,
taking different roads
Then love, love will tear us apart.

HOHO, life's been good these few days!

It's funny how the exam period is more relaxing than normal school daze. It's like, you only need to be in school for at most 3 hours a day, and you can get to go school later, return home earlier, plus you can have a full Macdonald's brunch or even a satisfying meal from KFC after a paper and talk about really random topics with your classmates. Doesn't apply to 30minutes before each paper though. I don't like to wait in nervousness!

Whoa, Thursday was a good day! Term exam ended with an okay paper, frisbeed! Okay, the frisbee part actually sucked a little cos I forgot how to throw a frisbee, sighhhs. Anyway, got a bit of sun! :DD That's something I need after 2 weeks of indoor trngs and mugging of cos.

Yeah, bused to town (with bernice, cherie, claudia, nirali, qiuxuan, yufen, daryl, melcher, shawn, taufiq)! Ate at pastamania which kinda wasn't very appetizing plus they had lousy service for forgetting to give me discount! :<

We were just in time to catch the messengers! HAHAHA, Super funnaye how it feels like we were the only row in the theater. Most of us were hiding behind jackets. I got leg cramp when the 'ghost' came out. The movie, I rate 3.5 stars out of 5! Not bad for scaring yourself cos it's not exactly helluva scary and I could understand it! Taufiq was hilarious during the movie.

Okay, so after the movie we bought another 9 tickets to catch MR.BEAN! So exciting I tell you. The timing was just right! I give 3 stars out of 5. I think the mr bean, the character is totally retarded, but really funny! Sometimes in life shit happens but it's not going to happen forever.

Roamed around town after that.

Home at 10 plus to have my dinner, watched big momma house 2 on cable! 3 movies in a row :D

Okay, friday wasn't exactly great. Kinda stressful I would say. See, the contrast (or contradiction) between exam and non-exam days. The feeling of waiting in nervousness again. Had health talk and I 'failed' the survey test damn badly. I'm not motivated and I can't revive from setbacks in a game. Surprisingly it showed that I have high self-confidence, but this I would beg to differ. So, the conclusion is, the survey's inaccurate. I am motivated and I can revive okay!

Went swimming after school with claudia, nirali, daryl and melcher who came later. Fun in the sun! :DD Got me very tired.

Raining, training, raining! Training was good. Haven't been to friday's training on time in the longest time! hahahah, I think we were high on lightnings! hahahaha, hilarious bunch of red-colour-shirt-ed. Thankyou keepin for your doughnuts (from a factory) though they almost got drowned in a colony of ants! :DD

I'm happily exhausted.

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.

; TEN FEET UNDER

The highlight of my day
I'm taking pictures in my mind
so i can save them for a rainy day

I got bored, so I started browsing through the photos taken last year. The candid shots were super hilarious! The ones taken during the dinner at nydc w the vballers, random sc3 shots, and some really random photos of people I don't know :x Helluva lot of candid shots! Happy memories and so much more

I've decided to take more candid shots of everyone so I can laugh more in the future. tsktsk!

Okay, this is really random, but I'm really bored.

Laterrrs.

; TEN FEET UNDER

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe.
Nothing's gonna change.

Holey,

You know, there's so much to say but I don't know how and where to begin.
Life's pretty okay. Not as hectic but still gotta rush a little in between. My mind's so saturated with info that I momentarily forgot my password into friendster and blogger just now, how sad.

I think I'm growing older and weaker. I feel that my legs can't carry me anymore, as in physically. Every time I move my legs I feel my knee cap shifting. And sometimes I find myself struggling to stand up, -gasp!- It's like the knee bone is eroding away. I hope it's not because I've been jumping/running a lot.

I wanna go swimming, I need some colour on my skin!

Haha, friday's practical trip to changi beach was damn good and interesting! I told my parents about it and we're making a trip down one fine day! :D Then maybe we can catch some jellyfish and cuttlefish to put into our aquarium, or maybe cook and eat? So exciting!

I love time spent with my family, friends and myself (with books?!)

Hurhur, this one week holiday is ending. School is starting, and so is Terms. Something insignificant but always exaggerated.

I want a simple life.

You know I'll take your hand

; TEN FEET UNDER

When shadows paint the scenes
Where spotlights used to fall
And I'm left wondering
Is it really worth it all?

Scooby Doo, where are youuuu!?
Boooohooooo, this is not good.

One chance, and I'm a step closer to ruining it all.

; TEN FEET UNDER

ZZZ.

I NEED DIRECTIONS!

; TEN FEET UNDER

I can’t seem to tame my mind
Slings and arrows are killing me inside
Maybe I can’t accept the life that’s mine

Dear world,

I almost lost my life to something so insignificant within a very short time span today. I never knew food allergies would be so serious. Ate 2 prawns during dinner and after an hour I looked like a red, irregular balloon, for the first time in my life.

My mom sent me to the doctor and the doctor said it would have caused death if the throat whatever gets really swollen and that's when you get breathing difficulties. I could hardly open my eyes cos they were swollen, rashes everywhere. Damn, stupid prawns! And I was supposed to go to the hospital if the medicine doesn't have any effect. Buy hey, I survived (:

mom: this dumpling noodle has cost me $31.

Slacky week, not supposed to be. Lost all my motivation, drive and mood to get down on my lecture notes cum tutorials and start studying. Everyday is just school, training and when I get home, eat, stare at my notes for a few minutes and onto the bed I go.

Why don't I feel the fun in things anymore, why why tell me why. Nothing interests me anymore ):

Have you ever looked at people and wonder why they do the things they do, then realise you've done it in the past too, then ask yourself why you don't do the things anymore and where has all the fun disappeared to. I have, and the feeling really sucks. You don't laugh at the things you used to laugh so hard at. Oh fun fun come back to me, may this air be blessed with fun, laughter, joy and peace.

And sometimes, trying too hard is just not the solution.

But I choose to win
So I choose to fight

; TEN FEET UNDER

How so easy said than done.

; TEN FEET UNDER

Today was a bad day right from the start, Boohoo. ):

'Night Life' was so much better. Deb, Tzel, Kaiqi, Kevin, Shemuel, Goh jia hao and Weisiang at yunjun's house, supposedly for "reunion dinner". Great seeing everyone again and recalling life in sec 4. Also recalling how to play mahjong, although I still don't quite know how. Tsktsk. Had much fun and enjoyed each and everyone's presence (:

I really really want to go back to 2 years ago, life was pretty much full of fun and laughter with us being really rebellious and crazy. Jumping, screaming, and even rolling.

Really tired, and scared.
The more decisions there are to make, the tireder you get.

Oh well, life's such xxx. Sometimes you just have to move your legs even though you think they can't carry you any longer, and one day you'll be amazed at the distance you've travelled.

The weekends are here! :DD & I do hope they're here to stay. STAY!

Simply complicated.

; TEN FEET UNDER